Close to His Side

The feeling inside

full of sadness and sorrow

will lead me to His side

Right now and not tomorrow

Is the moment of Salvation

He will not leave me here

it’s a day of celebration!

I need not fear!

His grace is greater

than any sin or darkness

although my flesh is a hater

of His Kingdom and righteousness

His power is able

to rid me of every trace

And remove these so desirable

feelings belonging to this race

He’s making me new

Knowing what I need 

So much better than I do

He’s planted His seed

within this heart of mine

crushing my heart of stone

giving me His Nature Divine

revealing His heart

that I may be filled with Him

in every single part

This is no whim

He is a God who hides 

Only those who seek 

those who always abide 

those who are humble and meek

underneath the Shadow of the Almighty

in the secret place

He will reveal Himself there

He will make known His ways

You’ll see He truly does care

for the pure in heart will see 

Him in all around them

It’s all for His glory 

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In Hiding

Wallowing in mud 

Trying to find a way out 

Yet falling down with a thud

Self-pity, pride and doubt 

All crowd out the knowledge of His love 

There’s no hope they say

You’ll never bee good enough 

Darkness lurks all about your day

It feels as though life’s never been this rough

You go through your routines 

Building up a ten foot wall

It’s all just the means 

To hide everyone from seeing you fall 

What do they think of you

Are you good enough for everyone? 

There’s nothing you could ever do

To make all your failures undone 

We are all hiding behind walls of stone 

Trying to cover the messes we’ve made 

Yet deep within, we groan 

Only looking to Christ will we fade

For we are nothing without Him

Even our good deeds are useless 

We are only like a limb 

Nothing without His righteousness 

Dead unless connected to the tree

Thus we must get out of the way 

So all can see 

His life and power in us this day

Our pride separates us from His life

Immediately we begin to wither  

As though a razor sharp knife 

Cut through and thither 

Until separated from the trunk 

We then begin to rot and stink 

Rid yourself from all selfishness 

Self esteem, self pity, pride and confidence 

Be filled instead with Christ and His righteousness 

Although the fog and clouds still seem dense 

Beyond it all, still shines the sun 

In all it’s brightness and glory 

There’s no need to doubt nor be glum

Everything He writes in His story 

Is all part of a perfect plan

Even when we miss the mark 

It’s only His hand

Hidden, working in our heart

That which will glorify His Name 

So let go of the pen you’re grasping 

Give up all that’s given shame 

Your fingers numb from clasping 

Your hearts heavy from all the pain

It’s only when you’re weakest 

Not worrying about what others think

For then His power shows up greatest 

Soon this world will be over in a blink 

And only His opinion matters

His Kingdom, His righteousness, His Name 

Never heed the lips of one who flatters 

For the next minute all he’ll do is blame

Be rooted deep within the Fathers love

Nothing else compares to Him 

He’s quietly planning for you above 

As all the earthly applause grows dim

He gives you more His Spirit and Nature Divine 

Nothing here compares to this 

Renew your way of thinking in your mind

He’ll reveal to you such bliss

His love is surpassing 

All height and depth, width and length 

Going beyond all understanding

That you may be filled with 

All of Him, in every single part

As He seeks to abide 

With you in the secret heart

What joy beyond all compare inside

While outside the storm will blow

Nevertheless joy overflows while doing His will

There alone as you get to know

His ways, and better still

His heart, His love, 

where no one else ever will see

Its between you and Him

He shines forth all His glory 

Through your, broken, empty life 

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The Test of Love

It’s not in the times when all goes right

When your hopes come true

Or your path is full of light

It’s not when your plans come through 

When the details turn out

Or dreams are fulfilled

It’s when your tempted to doubt

Your plans are all spilled

Nothing seems to go as you want

Deep inside is filled with pain

Your past is there to haunt

Nevertheless it’s not in vain

Only if instead of doubting 

You go deeper still

Into your inner being 

Where only Christ’s love can fill 

Crying out in earnest

Knowing He loves you even then

When the pain seems the hardest

Give to Him the pen

He will write His story 

He desires for nothing in between 

That you would desire Him only 

For something Ive seen 

Being in secret with Him

Is truly sweet above anything 

All other dreams then grow dim

There only my heart can sing

In such faith, hope and love

Letting go of my ambitions

He’s silently planning above 

There my goals transition 

Faith and love are proved here

In the trial and in the test

When I’m tempted to fear 

His power shows up best

He draws nearer through it all

If we would only surrender

Our plans whether big or small

We will find His ways are truly better 

As we listen for His voice 

following His leading 

Giving up our own choice

Obeying His pleading

His peace will be our referee 

Our hearts confident in Him

Oh taste and see

He is truly all we need.

He’s there, calling out

In the midst of the stormy sea 

“Leave the boat

And come unto Me.”

“Lord, if this is You calling

You will be with me all the way

Only You will keep me from falling

May I not be distracted today

As long as I look to You only

You will be with me

You will receive all the glory.”

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The Broken into Beautiful

You allow me to come to the end 

To be completely crushed, broken 

For when I am utterly empty, so done for 

It is there you meet me. 

When all else comes crashing to the ground 

Hopes dashing against The Rock 

There’s no other light I’ve found 

May I cling tightly to Him 

Who has something different in mind 

Even though this way seems dim 

As for Him, His Ways are perfect 

His Ways are past finding out. 

Can I not give Him my dreams 

That my hands may be free 

So I may cling to The Solid Rock 

While waves crashing all around me 

Trying to batter me to and fro 

All the while may I 

Cling even tighter to The Rock 

It’s edges seem rough 

And while others might mock 

These sharp pains are worth it 

They’re so much less 

Than the sorrow He has borne 

It may seem like everything 

In a moment like this 

But may I consider my suffering 

Worth nothing compared to His 

May I care more for my Savior 

Than for my own worried self in this storm 

Desiring not to displease Him 

Even when I’m wearied and worn 

Despite my own feelings, these painful emotions 

Even in this light and oh so momentary 

Tests, trials, temptations alike 

Yearning to bring Him all the glory 

Amen

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His Ways are Truly Higher

The time will slip by

Before you know it, it will be so

Why didn’t you wait

And take Him at His word?

And you will look back

To wonder how little it was

How easy to wait

So small the test

Yet in the moment it seems greater

But our desire to please Him

Should surpass all else

Our ultimate goal, pressing onwards 

Leaving our self life behind

Entrusting His perfect plan for this moment

For here, no other time is given

To undergo this test, to take this cross 

If we let it go by, we will not have this chance again 

We get to please Him in this chance to die

It’s all out of love

For He planned this moment in care

He supplies our needs

Even hunger or plentiful 

He will use each moment to conform

Taking away, thus moulding us each day

more into His likeness 

That we broken and weak

May show His power Divine. 

Shall we not endure this time?

It will pass also, no longer to return

Will we make the most of our time?

He has given us precious promises.

His love goes beyond all

We get to please Him

Giving Him everything 

He will see us through 

Even in the darkest of nights

He is with us, through the storm

We ought not to let go

Of His loving hand

Thinking we know better

We will soon find the winds and waves

Crashing all around us

We must yield our self confidence 

And pride

Surrendering to His will

In joy, knowing His ways

Are truly Higher

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Something New

It was one year ago He brought me through great affliction 

One year He began to teach me what faith is

To truly know He will use whatever He allows

For His great purposes

Since then He brought me through tests, trials too 

He formed and shaped me in the desert place

Where He began something new

Yet at the time I did not see nor understand 

The wonderful work which He began

He formed streams in the desert

His abundant life flowing forth

Giving joy even in hardship 

This desert place

He uses every moment still

Testing my faith and love in them

With those challenging moments 

He is in each one

Walking with me hand and hand 

Through them all

It’s never dull when I stop to seek

For His firm hand to hold fast

Listening to His voice 

“Don’t turn here, come this way instead”

Joy is found in Him alone

It’s nothing I have done,

His love goes beyond all understanding 

He gives me delight in desiring to please Him

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When He is Near

The only way heaven
Could ever come to earth in my heart
The only way life could be
Somewhat perfect
Would be to surrender
Myself completely
To enjoy whatever my Lord
Desires to send my way
To find His joy through each trial
Finding Him near me
Right beside me as I follow His path
He walked it first
Yet now calls us to live it also
Not alone, no never alone
Unless I try to make myself big
He will not be near
Only if abiding in Him will He
Always be near
Oh to store up treasures with Jesus
Through each mundane moment
And each challenging one
If myself tried to take His place
I will find He has departed
Only when I give myself up
He is near to me
Only if I am empty
Will He fill to the uttermost
Only if I surrender each day
He will be a part of this journey
If I seek to please Him in love
His love will be evident
If I depend on feelings or man
I will not depend upon Him
He who desires all my love
Desires I walk hand in hand with Him
He longs for me to overcome
More than I could ever imagine
If only I'll trust Him each moment
In every pain, trial, suffering
Shall His strength uphold me
To suffer with Him on His cross
My self denied, my life emptied
His glory fulfilled His life abundant
It's not enough to hope
But to know, He who promised is faithful
He will bring it to pass
He called me up to Himself
To go up higher
To have His Spirit of love
Power and sound mind
That the Spirit of fear may be rooted out
His life will be radiant
Glowing from the deepest wells
Overflowing by His Spirit
Whenever the anxieties of life
Turn my eyes away from Him
Oh Lord may I pray
Save me!
He will quickly come to rescue
His grace is sufficient
He is able to save
Increase my faith I cry
More trials, temptations afflictions
Flood my path
Yet His love is past understanding
His ways are beyond finding out
He wants me to trust Him
Depending upon Him for dear life
That I will obey even in this flood
Humble myself and see
The only good in me is from He
Who fills His life from deep within
He is the only One
Who is good
These words do not describe
How marvellous He is
All that has been done which is good
Has been done
By His works alone
No man can boast
For there is none who are good
Not even one
No one who understands
what it would be like
to not be tempted by sin
He is the only One
Who will never even
glance at it with joy.
Even despite a wolf inside
He allows us to also
Have a growing hatred
for sin like He does.
If only we hate it
will it become tasteless.
Only by His power
will we partake into His Divine Nature
Shall we not go on from here?
Shall we not seek the higher things?
To see life from His perspective
To be filled with Him from our deepest
To overflow with love for Him
Oh Father may we never ever loose
Deep love, reverencing fear
For you alone
Are truly worthy
Amen

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